not in control...as it turns out
So I've been asked a lot lately to update my blog, so here it goes...you all asked for it. ;)
It turns out that I'm not in control...of anything. About 4 weeks ago, the week of March 27th, the Lord taught me yet again that I am not in control of life...at all. I had just gotten home from an amazing weekend in College Station. It was really a wonderful reunion. It is a true blessing to have friendships that go so deep and to have people in your life that really know you to the depths of your heart. Mr. Meier and I had a wonderful trip down and back just chatting about life and changes. On Monday morning I was on my way to work - a different way because I went to the bank - and as I was crossing a busy street with my green light, a man in an SUV on his way to cataract surgery hit me. He ran a red light right into me. (This would be the 3rd wreck in less than 6 months...) I sat in my car, looked up towards the Lord, and said outloud, "Are you kidding me, Lord?" It was a rough day to say the least. That day a young man walked into my office that goes to my church. Little did I know that I would see him again...
On Wednesday our office went through a little bit of craziness. I cannot really talk about it online, but it was crazy--- trust me! On Thursday the craziness continued, and I was once again learning that I had control over nothing...including what may happen around me for the worse. Our team was asked not to leave the office due to some situations going on...so I was in jail for the day. A lady from HR stopped by around noon to tell us that a bishop from the Catholic church was there blessing the kids and that our office should probably go be blessed...so we all, even the Protestants, decided that wasn't such a bad idea and headed to the atrium. About that time the young man, that had stopped by on Monday, came back by and wanted to take me to lunch. Again - he showed up out of no where - and I was obviously not the one in control here either...
I walked to the cafeteria with him to refill my drink --- I got a "get out of jail free" card for about 20 minutes. We had a great conversation. I was impressed to say the least. I went to camp that weekend, and on my return on Monday, he asked me out on a date. We didn't go out until Tuesday...but it was amazing. It's funny because I could go into all the details of how I didn't have control over anything that week --- I got in a wreck that wasn't my fault, my office dynamics changed in the matter of a day, and a guy walks into my office on day and the rest of my life is changed. I don't know about you, but I'm trusting the Lord... He deserves the fame for all that is happening in my life right now. And I have to say, He is getting it. Not enough, but I've been on my knees praising His sweet name for the last 4 weeks. He has poured grace over me that I never, ever knew existed in this abundance and love. He has showed Himself to be abundantly faithful in ways that I will share with all of you at some point hopefully. Trust me though...You are not in control and life is not about you!!! I am a living testimony that I am not in control and life is all about Him! The older gentleman, on his way to cataract surgery, that hit me, heard the gospel --- I couldn't stop talking about the Lord in my shock. My office is praying together and seeking the Lord regularly. This guy, Ross, is truly amazing and is revealing more of the Lord's love to me than I know what to do with. I'm not in control and it is not about me.
Really, though, I'm amazed at what the Lord can do when He is ready to do it. I hope that I have finally learned that I'm not in control, but the truth is, I will probably learn this again one day. Praise Jesus for the cross! I have also learned that whatever I think I might be in control of, I better just go ahead and hand it to the Lord...He's gonna take it away anyways, so I might as well hand it on over.
In case you are wondering, here's a pic of Ross, me, Elyse and Craig on our way to the zoo the other day...
He is in all things, and in Him all things hold together. His ways are higher than my ways, and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts. He's a beautiful God!
It turns out that I'm not in control...of anything. About 4 weeks ago, the week of March 27th, the Lord taught me yet again that I am not in control of life...at all. I had just gotten home from an amazing weekend in College Station. It was really a wonderful reunion. It is a true blessing to have friendships that go so deep and to have people in your life that really know you to the depths of your heart. Mr. Meier and I had a wonderful trip down and back just chatting about life and changes. On Monday morning I was on my way to work - a different way because I went to the bank - and as I was crossing a busy street with my green light, a man in an SUV on his way to cataract surgery hit me. He ran a red light right into me. (This would be the 3rd wreck in less than 6 months...) I sat in my car, looked up towards the Lord, and said outloud, "Are you kidding me, Lord?" It was a rough day to say the least. That day a young man walked into my office that goes to my church. Little did I know that I would see him again...
On Wednesday our office went through a little bit of craziness. I cannot really talk about it online, but it was crazy--- trust me! On Thursday the craziness continued, and I was once again learning that I had control over nothing...including what may happen around me for the worse. Our team was asked not to leave the office due to some situations going on...so I was in jail for the day. A lady from HR stopped by around noon to tell us that a bishop from the Catholic church was there blessing the kids and that our office should probably go be blessed...so we all, even the Protestants, decided that wasn't such a bad idea and headed to the atrium. About that time the young man, that had stopped by on Monday, came back by and wanted to take me to lunch. Again - he showed up out of no where - and I was obviously not the one in control here either...
I walked to the cafeteria with him to refill my drink --- I got a "get out of jail free" card for about 20 minutes. We had a great conversation. I was impressed to say the least. I went to camp that weekend, and on my return on Monday, he asked me out on a date. We didn't go out until Tuesday...but it was amazing. It's funny because I could go into all the details of how I didn't have control over anything that week --- I got in a wreck that wasn't my fault, my office dynamics changed in the matter of a day, and a guy walks into my office on day and the rest of my life is changed. I don't know about you, but I'm trusting the Lord... He deserves the fame for all that is happening in my life right now. And I have to say, He is getting it. Not enough, but I've been on my knees praising His sweet name for the last 4 weeks. He has poured grace over me that I never, ever knew existed in this abundance and love. He has showed Himself to be abundantly faithful in ways that I will share with all of you at some point hopefully. Trust me though...You are not in control and life is not about you!!! I am a living testimony that I am not in control and life is all about Him! The older gentleman, on his way to cataract surgery, that hit me, heard the gospel --- I couldn't stop talking about the Lord in my shock. My office is praying together and seeking the Lord regularly. This guy, Ross, is truly amazing and is revealing more of the Lord's love to me than I know what to do with. I'm not in control and it is not about me.
Really, though, I'm amazed at what the Lord can do when He is ready to do it. I hope that I have finally learned that I'm not in control, but the truth is, I will probably learn this again one day. Praise Jesus for the cross! I have also learned that whatever I think I might be in control of, I better just go ahead and hand it to the Lord...He's gonna take it away anyways, so I might as well hand it on over.
In case you are wondering, here's a pic of Ross, me, Elyse and Craig on our way to the zoo the other day...
He is in all things, and in Him all things hold together. His ways are higher than my ways, and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts. He's a beautiful God!
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